The 5 things changing my life

I must preface this post by saying that my wife Catherine is a huge force in helping me change my life. Although I haven't included her in the five life changers below it is not because she doesn't deserve to be, but just because you can't have her! The following list is here to help you as the contents have helped me and continue to do so. Catherine although amazing will not be able to fly around the world to help you out, she's my BWE*. Ok onwards, I hope you enjoy the read. (*Best wife ever)

Five life changers

1. Meditation

The idea for this post came to after my morning ritual of meditating. I know I bang on about meditating, but for something so simple it really has some great benefits that everyone could do with. Schools around the world are including it in their lessons (much like mine did 20+ years ago) to help kids develop a tool that will help them throughout their lives. However this practice is ancient and by no means a modern "fad" that will come and go. Science can now prove through the use of MRI that meditating daily for a period of 6-8 weeks can reduce the brain activity in areas associated with stress and anxiety. For me it has been a gift that I can use to calm my mind when practiced regularly and gives me the knowledge that I have control over my brain, not the other way around. The latter is more powerful than anything because for someone with depression it is a tool of action that can be used immediately and very quickly produce results. Without further ado take three minutes out of your day and try this simple meditation below. It is one of my favourites as it helps me "check in" with my brain and make it take a bloody holiday from itself.

Three minute Breathing Space meditation


2. Routine

I actually wrote this out as number one when planning this post because it has made such a difference to my mental health in the last few weeks that I have been practicing it. Now I am not a naturally organised or disciplined person. I like to think I am fairly relaxed, free thinking and creative. However I refuse to accept that we are born a certain way when it comes to which side of the brain is more dominant in our thinking. In my research into the brain I have learnt a great deal about the brain's ability to repair itself and adapt at any stage of life. Yes it takes hard work, but it is not impossible as many would have you believe. That is where routine is the King of change. In order to produce consistent results in a new habit or when learning a new skill it is routine which will enable success. Motivation alone cannot get you your goals, you need routine to ensure that you get out of bed at 5:30am everyday, do your meditation, educate yourself and train before you go to work for ten hours. For creative types routine may seem mundane and a killer for their "organic" process, but it is through consistent balanced effort that you actually develop your skills. Without further ado here is my morning routine:

• 5:30 wake up and put kettle on (I am British), brush teeth
• 5:30-5:35 mobility exercises whilst making tea (I'm not getting younger)
• 5:35-5:50 meditation from Mindfulness book
• 5:50-6:00 write a page (normally exceed this!)
• 6:00-6:10 read a minimum of three pages (small goals = frequent small wins)
• 6:10-6:20 handstands and warmup exercises (just for fun and to get the blood pumping)
• 6:20-6:30 breakfast
• 6:30-6:40 leave for work.

In the last week I have found this routine massively improves my mood and sets me up with a feeling of accomplishment at the beginning of the day. In other words I am ready to take on the world! You should try it, seriously it's the shizzle.

3. Healthy Habits

I have momentarily forgotten what I meant by this. Ah yes ok I've got it. I think when I was having this great idea that I meant small habits that have multiple beneficial outcomes. For example I have been focusing on stretching this week for 5 minutes a day. I use an app called Habit List to help remind me and track when I have and haven't completed the tasks on it. The idea with the stretching is to make it small enough that it isn't a big deal. Anyone can stretch for 5 minutes right?! I can do that whilst my dinner is cooking in the oven and because 5 minutes is such a small amount I am more likely to exceed it. But if I don't then it doesn't matter because I've achieved what I set out to do. When creating these new healthy habits I have found the POP (piece of piss) technique to be the most effective. When it is so easy that you can do it everyday you are much more likely to develop that new habit into a powerful change in your life. Plus 5 minutes every day is 35 minutes a week more than I am doing now, so you can see how it will add up. 

Here's what my current habit list looks like:

 

As you can see most (but not all) of my habits are specific and small targets i.e. 5 minute mobility warm up, 3 handstands, 3 minute meditation etc.

Some are too general (I will be rectifying this immediately after I finish here) such as writing research and foam roll. If they are not really specific then it is too easy to cop out early and be "loose" when undertaking them.

There's fun habits in there as well as serious ones that help me change as a person because if it's not fun and adds excitement then I may truly go nuts.

Check out Habit List here: Easy habit maker

4. Writing

As you may know I have written for years, but it is only really within the last year that I have discovered the huge impact it can have on my mental health. In it's simplest form I use it to offload the shit stuff in my head and free up space to let my brain be creative. As I have learnt over the last year I actually enjoy the physical act of putting pen to paper and there is a huge amount of stuff I write that I will never publish, it just brings me joy. I know that it is easy for me to write and that may not be the case for everybody. But if you noticed on my habit list I have one to write a page a day. This is for two reasons, one is to help me finish my book before the end of the year and the other is so that I can write more and thus develop my craft. However one page is easy for anyone not just me. So I encourage you to use it to note how you feel in that moment, how you felt during your day, conflicts you encountered and wins that you had. It is a great way of ridding yourself of pointless negative chatter in your head and will help you see it more rationally if it's on paper where you can read it. If you can't talk about your problems then please write it down, it may just help.

5. Exercise

Some of you may know that I am a qualified personal trainer (no sham fitness advice from me!) so I know the benefits of regular exercise. However if Carlsberg did personal trainers I would probably be the laziest of them all (oblique reference there). Most people wrongly assume that I must be really fit and find training easy. This is far from true. My favourite X-Men character is Wolverine and I would happily say that I am much like him. Not the Adamantium skeleton, the claws, the ability to regenerate after being wounded or his immense strength. No I am more like the grumpy, angry Logan that enjoys shots of alcohol and being left alone by the muppets of the world. Yes that is most definitely me. So going to the gym is not my number one pastime. However I know it's good for me especially lifting heavy weights, which release a few chemicals into my bloodstream that help my brain to shutup for five minutes. Running can also help, but I have to run fast enough that I feel pretty uncomfortable and my head doesn't have space to think of anything but preventing my heart from jumping from my chest. In a long winded way what I am trying to tell you is that you should take some exercise whether you like it or not. You don't need to run or go to the gym, just find some activity that raises your heart rate for an extended period of time. Yes sex could be one, although you'd need to be able to go for a long enough time period to have a beneficial effect. Having said that you could employ the Tabata Protocol (20 seconds on, 10 seconds rest) if you struggle in this department. Just saying. Simply put pick a fun activity that you will want to do regularly and go and do it "little and often". No need for 2 hour long sessions in the gym unless you bloody well work there or are a professional athlete/bodybuilder. 

Here's my training aims at the moment:

Monday: Gymnastic Bodies stretch program at home.

Tuesday: Interval run training 20-40 minutes

Wednesday: GB stretch program

Thursday: 10km mixed run of different speeds

Friday: GB stretch program

Saturday: Gym/acrobatic training

Sunday: Long run 14km+ and acrobatic training

Now the reality this last week was a lot different and I probably achieved about 20% of what I wanted. Fortunately I am working a physical job at the moment, so that helps, but I have been lax. Learn from the master of mistakes (don't call me MOM) and go for a small realistic goal with your training. 

Conclusion

I get carried away when writing, so I apologise if this was longer than you'd hoped. But I am passionate about these things and that is what helps me get through my days. If you are struggling with your mind, stressed at work, lost in life then maybe it's time to help yourself and use some of these tools. You have the power to change yourself, just start small and take a step.

Tom :)

Keeping it short

Hey world. How you doin'?

This is a short update on my progress with my new habits of regular writing, meditating and action on work and life. That actually sounds like a shitload of stuff to go over, so I promise to limit this to 800 words or less. Shit here goes...

Across the board I am doing pretty well at routinely training, writing and meditating. No I am not Mother Theresa because that would be weird, she was much smaller than me. So yes I have room for improvement and that will be my focus once I've cracked out a couple more weeks of routinely sticking to my plan. One thing that is helping to remind me to be a badass is the app called Habit List. With it you can create a number of habits that you want to develop and it will remind you to do them as well as track how many you actually complete. So at the end of each week you can see some concrete evidence on whether you have actually achieved all those training sessions you talked about or whether you were talking out of your arse (again). I like it, it's simple and effective and comes well recommended by efficiency aficionado Tim Ferris who wrote the Four Hour Week, Diet and Chef. Check out any of his books, they are excellent. I fully expect my kickback for mentioning him to be huge ;)

One of my new habits of getting up early is going pretty well. I have read or heard from numerous sources that successful people across many different fields rise between 4:30 & 5:30am. As I normally have to get up for work at 6am it isn't much of a stretch for me to make it 5:30, so I have been setting my Sleep Cycle alarm to go off between 5&5:30 for the last week or so. I have probably averaged just over 7 hours a sleep a night since I've been doing it and feel so much better for getting writing and meditating done as my first task of the day. I am also well rested and get off to sleep quickly at night. Fuck that concept of 8 hours a night though friends. If you read the latest research you'll find that they don't actually know what is best and that it is specific to each individual. What works for me might not work for you. I know that 6 isn't enough and I normally wake up naturally after 7-7.5. Anyhoo (I know that isn't a real word) I have been able to write a page, read three pages and meditate during this extra early wake up time, so I am pretty stoked (dude) about that.

In terms of the writing I am progressing on my book (Sexual fantasies of a sloth Part 1) pretty well. I do need to write more on it everyday, but like a sloth it can be slow going. All joking aside my book needs a little more time focused on it, so I will be doing that before I do any blog posting in the future. I think it is often easier to talk shit than knuckle down to what we must do to move forwards. I think clever people call this procrastination, bloody know it alls.

Meditating am I. Ten minutes a day is my go to, although my target is actually three because any mother tucker can sit quietly and meditate for three bloody minutes! It's all about the small wins. Like I said above I am not Mother Theresa.

Work is mental with a capital M and L. I am happy that my own stuff is progressing well and just need to spend a little time this weekend thinking about where I am headed with it all. Once my book comes out I probably won't have much time for anything else because of all the interviews, book signings and TV serialisation. I know there is a huge interest in Sloth related material, so it's going to be full on. Nevertheless I need to set some new goals and have a think about my direction, both of which I am crap at doing.

Right I think that is everything. I probably missed something out, but hey I need to have material for my next post!

Until next time avid readers of this no nonsense blog,

Tom "the sloth" Alfry.

P.S If you are not very good with sarcasm then I apologise for you. No sloths were harmed in the making of this post or my new book.

P.P.S It was 772 words. BOOM!

Working hard

This week I worked a lot at a lot of different things. I didn't work as much as Catherine because I would probably keel over if I had to do that, but we all know she is a little trooper. That being said I am trying to support her as she has been working on this project for a long time and it's about to get even tougher as they near the completion. Thank goodness for meditation, exercise and sleep! Thankfully the new sleeping routine I wrote out with C last weekend seems to be helping her to get off to sleep quicker and get a better quality of sleep with less worry. A bedtime routine is essential for good sleep hygiene and getting rid of the technology stimulation has been a small part of that. She's doing an amazing job and I am extremely proud and constantly amazed by her tenacity, willpower and commitment. She just needs to remind herself how amazing she is, how far she has come and how important she is.



A short time ago I set a limit on myself of not working more than 50 hours a week. At that time I had identified that number as the limit of my coping abilities. I also said I wouldn't work Saturdays in order to fully rest and enjoy my time off. However times change, I have progressed beyond what I thought possible. Quite simply I got off my arse and took action to change. I have been working on a new habit of getting up and training early before work, of meditating each day and committing myself to work. No matter what mood I've had this week I've reminded myself that I am at work to get shit done, to learn and not think about anything outside of this. I've been doing 50 hours a week with Steve and then private work early in the mornings or after hours. I worked a Saturday to get a new client's work done as I can't get there in the week. Am I doing too much? Maybe. But the difference is my mindset, I am committed to taking action on the things I want to change and that comes from hard work. Yes I need to be intelligent about it and that is where meditation, exercise and a good sleep routine balance the workload out.


So what has changed?

1. I've been getting up earlier. I've been using the apps Hypnos and Sleep Cycle in order to get the right amount of sleep and make the most of my time. These have allowed me to get up at 5 or 5:30 am and feel awake and rested. I plan on making this earlier as I find early mornings are my most creative and productive. 
2. The key to any of my new changes has been to tie it into my existing routine. I spoke about this before in "Taking action and creating habits" and how we should start really small and frequently remind ourselves when creating a new habit. With that in mind I have been meditating in the mornings when I make my morning cuppa, the bare minimum I aim for is 3 minutes. If I do more then that is a bonus, but 3 minutes is all I need achieve for now. 
3. I have been getting my training in, whether it is early in the morning or as soon as I get back from work I have made sure that I did it regardless of how I felt. On Tuesday I had to run 10x400m intervals with 400m recovery after each. I went down to the beach feeling ok and ran around the grassy area in front of the beach (conveniently 400m long) until I had completed the session. I was tired and didn't run as fast as I wanted, but by the end I had run 8km around a circle and finished my training. I gave myself a pat on the back and noted a win for the week. 
4. Rewards. I've started to reward myself for the small wins I have. This does not mean I eat chocolate, food or buy clothes for myself it just means I tell myself "good job Tom" when I have done a meditation, a training session or just got up early. I have a larger reward in mind, but until I can congratulate myself on the small wins and enjoy them I won't be able to enjoy the big stuff later on. (My brain doesn't work in a normal way remember!)

That is not to say that I haven't been challenged by my brain and it's old tricks. Yesterday when I was working on making a pool box for a client it began to rain and was consistent for a couple of hours. I worked through it, but it slowed me done (power tools in the rain = injury). I also made a mistake when buying the cladding I got the wrong length for what I needed, so I had to return it and correct the mistake. I also took longer to get my frame right as I realised I would have to make it in two pieces and clad the back before I put it in place over the pool cover. All this began to produce some familiar thought processes with my brain telling me "you are taking too long" and "you won't make any money out of this now". Fortunately I was able to just listen to this and accept that it was just a thought before calmly continuing with my work, enjoying the slowness, the precision and the satisfaction from not fucking it up. I learnt a lot from yesterday and because I took my time I didn't make a couple of bug mistakes that I would've had I rushed. Yes the rain was cold and wet, but like my thoughts it wasn't going to kill me, nor deter me from producing smart work. I have to go back to finish off as there is more to do, but I feel more confident about it and am looking forward to seeing the finished result.

Conclusion

I've chattered on a lot, but the point was to say that I am improving and progressing with my mind and my actions. I don't want to be the person that "talks a good game", but rather the man that takes action and lives by what he writes and says. None of what I am writing now has come overnight, I have to work at it each day, it is my life. But strangely having that to drive me has helped a lot. I am doing this for myself because as I said last year I had had enough. I needed to change and now after a year of working out what works and what doesn't I am finally putting in the work to make a lasting impact. If you feel the self pity, lethargy and hopelessness that I felt last year and in the years before then perhaps now is the time to start taking action. Your brain will always do it's own thing if you let it. Accept these two things:

1. Your thoughts are not real, they won't physically stop you from doing anything. (Even if you think they can.)
2. You can take control and change your brain.

How long will you let your brain control your life?

Tom out (mic drop)

Recovery road

These last couple of weeks have been truly amazing. Since my pep talk from my friend Andrew I have taken some consistent action on everything from my attitude involving work to my approach to training. My excitement levels have risen and I've been thinking in a much more proactive way. It feels the strangest thing because for the first time in a long time I feel that I am in control. Even more exciting is that I am going to do everything I can to enjoy the life I've got.

This kind of acrobatics.

Over the weekend I had a great time. Not only did I get to spend time with my wife (still sounds weird saying that!) but I also read a little, wrote a little, ate a lot, listened to a long podcast and did some acrobatics (see right). Oh and I got to see the new X-Men film. All in all a busy, yet relaxing weekend.

On Sunday morning after dropping some timber off at a client's home I grabbed a coffee and a vanilla doughnut from Pasticceria Papa. I settled into the driver's seat of Alf Stewart (the ute) and read the latest New Scientist. For 30 minutes I was in heaven, although that could've been the two shots of caffeine and a diabetes inducing doughnut. Nevertheless it felt great to do something as simple as sit and read, without pressure from my own mind that I was being lazy. I think after working 55 hours last week I could happily tell my mind where to go with that thought! For me there is a necessity just to sit and read, to stop and slow down my mind and body. When I don't get to do this I feel rushed and I resent what takes me away from this simple part of my day. So don't get in my way people!

It is a big deal for me to write and say that I haven't felt the anxiety of previous weeks over the last two weekends. If I'm being honest it makes me a little teary to say that I haven't felt like life is empty. It is a great thing. It shows me that I've reached another level in my recovery and changed a little more. I can still think of how I felt a year ago and at times within the last 12 months since. I don't think that deep feeling of sadness, hopelessness and fatigue with life can ever be forgotten. Nor should it. Whatever stage people find themselves within mental illness they should always be reminded of how far they have come and why they should carry on to move forwards. I certainly don't want to forget as it is motivating me to get up earlier and get training done, get my book writing completed and enjoy life to the full.

As per usual with these update posts I don't know where I was headed. There probably was no goal other than to write and tell you how I am doing. I'm trying to reach out and help others with what I am continuing to learn, but some times I just need to write about me and be a selfish prick for a moment. Ok... that was the moment.

In conclusion I just want to ask you to do one thing this week. Take time to do one thing that you enjoy, whether it be drinking a coffee or reading a book. Whether it's alone or with friends, just make sure you do that one thing that makes you sigh and say, "this shit isn't too bad after all".

Tom :)

Reminders for the Mind

What a helmet

This week I have been busy working on a building project with Steve for a friend of mine in Paddington. It has been a great week of learning and satisfying physical work, but also exciting to see a project through from the start. After working on site I have also managed to fit in some after hours work too, so it's not left much time to write here or post anything to MrStevensWrites. However I have still managed to keep up my scribbles in one form or another and have got up before 5am to go for a training run twice this week. So I am still on track to creating my new habit of writing and training early, I'm certainly not beating myself up about it.

After talking with my friend Andrew late last night (I managed to stay awake until 11pm!) I realised that although none of us need a plan to start creating a new habit, but it might just help. When we want to create a new habit, perhaps in order to overcome an existing one, we are usually really motivated. We feel we could take on the world and succeed within 24 hours, but then life happens. We have a long day, a hard day, we encounter difficulty, stress and our new habits get left at the kerb. There is no doubt that creating a new habit is tougher than we think when we start it. As I have said before we must be consistent with out efforts in order to make progress. I have to remind myself of this a lot, sometimes I forget because other than my Adamantium skeleton I am only human. So what are we to do?

Reminders are everywhere in our lives. Whether it's a reminder on our phone to wish our family member a happy birthday or a familiar smell that reminds us of a long forgotten memory. Our brains need a little reminding in order to take action and keep taking it to produce a new result. Our brains however will take the path of least resistance. It makes sense that they are efficient, they've been developing over millions of years (sorry God). Now when we introduce something new the brain has to change the patterns created. But overcoming years of habit creation is like taming a lion with a wooden spoon. That's where reminders will help us to succeed. By placing reminders with existing habits like brushing teeth, making a cup of morning tea or making breakfast we can maintain consistency.

I think that left jar is making up for something

I recently put two jars next to the kettle. One contained 40 or so drawing pins, the other was empty. When I went to make my morning cuppa I was reminded by the jars that I needed to write. So once my tea was brewed I would sit and write a page in my notebook. Whatever came to my mind would go down. I would then transfer a pin from the full jar to the empty one in order to show myself progress. When I came home that evening and made tea I would see those jars again and be reminded to write. I would be able to repeat the morning process, but possibly write a little more like a blog post. It's a small and seemingly silly example that works really well for me (never underestimate the power of tea!), but it shows how easy it can be to remind yourself to do something and in that moment take action.

Andrew's new tactic is leaving himself reminders around his flat in order to change his mindset. I haven't yet spoken to him in detail about this, but I can see this working if he has notes on his bathroom mirror, perhaps inside the fridge on his microbiotic produce (lol) or on his front door. These places like my kettle are in your face throughout the day and that is what you are going to need in order to succeed in making a new habit work and creating a new mindset.


Conclusion
 I know I may repeat myself about this a lot, but that is because it is not rocket science, you just have to do it.

1. Start by leaving reminders for yourself around the house in places that you will go frequently. Write down what you need to hear and read it aloud when you see it. Hearing it as well as seeing it is much more powerful for your brain. Tie the reminders to established habits, like using the bathroom, brushing teeth, packing your work bag etc.
2. Write out the action you need to take to create your new habit on your reminders. If it's to get fit then you could say "Put on this kit and go for a 15 minute run", leave it by the toilet.
3. Track your progress. Leave a pen by your notes and tally up each time you carry out your new habit. Whether it's writing, reading, running or eating healthier. Make it visual so you can see your success and prove to your brain that you can do it.
4. Set yourself a reward. You want to get to the point where you can take action come rain or shine, no matter how you feel. That will be tough. So set a goal and a reward for when you achieve that goal. This may sound like "I want to get to the point where I am running twice a week for four consecutive weeks. My reward will be to go and watch Metallica in concert." The key is to make it important to you, something you really want that will help you in the early stages of habit creation.

Why not give it a go this week and let me know how you get on. I am off to stick post-it notes to my toilet, I'm planning on a trip to Florida as my reward.

Tom :)

Wheels on fire

I feel like I haven't written in ages, but it has only been five days since my last confessional. In that time I have achieved a great deal in taking the action I spoke about in my last post Ready Set Action. I have also had time off over the weekend, time in which I haven't felt rushed, nor felt like I've needed to be somewhere. That is because I've been acting, not thinking! For the first time in ages I feel excited about work, content about my direction and happy during my free time.

It's wheely good

After my last post I took some advice from my brother Rich who is qualified in Neuro Lingustic Programming (NLP). I'll let you learn about NLP for yourself, but it is something that I have started to use alongside meditation to literally help change my mind. Knowing what Rich knows I listened to what he had to say and thus learnt about the Wheel of Life.

My bro sent me the image to your right and explained how it works. To understand it check out this at the end of the post (don't leave me!) - Wheely helpful link. 

I completed the instructions Rich gave me and it identified four key areas that I need to work on. The results fitted perfectly with my previous post about action, which was reassuring. Sometimes it is obvious what you need to work on, but often you have to ask yourself objective questions rather than "think" what might need work. That's where tools like the Wheel of Life and NLP are invaluable for ensuring you progress and don't just "talk a good game".

Romance and fun all in one place :)

Conclusion

I've found that I need to work on my career, family and friends, romance and fun. Whatever you might think you know about me, or see from the outside I can assure you that I am far from perfect. I am not searching for perfection or happiness anymore, merely to improve on what I can be. To be a better man. Since last year when I had my little brain implosion I have been working on changing my mind, creating new habits and finding tools to deal with the bad, learn and move on stronger. I am now seeing the results after months of work and I like where I am headed.

Don't think about where you want to be too long, just get out and take action.

Tom :)

Ready, set, ACTION!

At the start of the week I wrote a post about how I was taking action. After my brother messaged me to ask me what I meant I knew that I had been suitably vague on the details. But I am still working this shit out, so it can take some time. My brain is basically like a Brita water filter, it absorbs a lot of crap, but eventually after an unknown period of time it gives out something I can absorb.

So after a few days of taking "action" I came upon a new way of dealing with my brain. Taking action is as simple as it sounds, it means getting off your backside and doing something, so that your brain can't flood you with endless negativity or purposeless questions. It means you take back control of your brain and better yourself and your life. It needn't be a big task that you take action on, it could just be putting the bins out. But you take that small task, own it and act on it. If you put off the small things then how will you progress on the big stuff?

So far I have split it into four key areas that I want to improve (this may increase later). The areas look like this....

My amazing brain diagram

 Work: I take action to improve my work life. That could be as simple as putting 100% into each work day no matter what crap jobs we may have to do. There is always something to be learnt from each working day no matter how small. It means focusing on the task in hand and not letting my mind wander. It also means networking and furthering my work outside of the 9-5 because none of us can rest on our laurels.

Family: Checking in with family, friends, loved ones. We all lead busy lives, whether they are actually busy or we just like to think they are we should still make time for the important people in our lives. Asking how others are doing not only helps you to stay grounded, but also makes those people feel wanted. I don't need to tell you how it feels when you are low and a friend checks in with you. So do the same for one of yours, they may not want to talk at that moment, but if you keep checking they may take you up on a chat.

Health: If you think because I used to be a PT that it's easy for me to look after my health then think again! I am no better at avoiding junk food, training regularly or getting enough quality than anyone else. I have barriers to training, diet and sleep like everyone else. I will say to myself that I need more sleep when my alarm goes off at 5am to train. Or I won't eat enough during the day because I couldn't be bothered to shop the night before. Like everyone else I will watch TV til I go to bed because I don't want to miss out on a show I'm following. If I am lacklustre with my physical health then how will my mental health cope? So my actions this week have been to train after work to get out and do something no matter how small it may be.

Love: This is pretty simple. It doesn't mean you have to "find" love. It can mean a variety of things and I mean it for me on multiple levels. I will love my wife, I will love writing, I will love eating, I will love doing handstands, I will love playing PS4 with my mate Simon. Whatever the thing or person you love, you should focus time in your week to doing those things or being with those people. Life is too short to miss out on doing the things you want to do, so just go and do them.

Taking action doesn't mean you make yourself crazily busy though. It means you act on the things that are important to you and that will improve your life and the lives of others as a result. I'm not saying you need to be a charity angel or give yourself to serving others, far from it. I'm actually saying that if you are selfish and think about what you love to do, what you want from your life and then take action then things will change for the better in your life. When you are doing what you want to do your mood and energy changes because you are in control, you are not a zombie sheep following everyone else. When your mood improves the mood of others around you improves, you become a leader of action not a follower of reaction.

But who am I to preach unless I do what I say, so here I am writing to tell you that I am doing these things. In the last two weeks I've overcome a couple of personal mountains, which have propagated the seedlings of a new direction. When you lack excitement and fulfillment from your life these are the moments you hold onto with all your might. It's hard work on a lot of fronts dealing with depression, but fuck it's worth it in the end. Just keep holding on.

Tom :)